Even though I enjoy painting I find that I put off doing it. Sometimes I let guilt that I should be doing something more productive or dutiful get in the way. That is just an emotional feeling. Most times I don’t have the something else to do. So instead of facing that feeling and trying to delve into it, or being more disciplined, I find myself playing cards or mahjong on the computer. And sometimes I find myself surfing the net looking for the special inspiration I think I need. Often, I have items stacked that I plan to paint “someday”. Why not today. Why not right now? What is holding me back?
Maybe it is that I don’t feel I deserve the happiness I receive through painting. Maybe I think that my paintings should be a source of income, and then I would have the “right” to spend time doing it. Maybe I am just not appreciating the talent God has given me.
There are a lot of “maybe’s” in life. Are you letting the maybe’s get in your way of enjoying God’s gifts to you? Do you feel you don’t deserve happiness? Ask God in your heart today. Let Him be your shining inspiration!
Have a blessed day!
